tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-63748413130682490042011-08-12T07:37:27.805-07:00akikonoreply@blogger.comBlogger211100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6374841313068249004.post-20258209286733560792010-11-14T04:47:00.000-08:002010-11-14T04:52:30.349-08:00not sure who still comes to read this...<br /><br />was pretty surprised that Jiarong you still come here :) such a good friend even though we haven't been talking much since u got a gf!<br /><br />yes and i owe u 1 happy post. <br /><br />things are slowly getting back on track. career, my life. Things have to eventually rebound when it hits the dead bottom right? Now work takes mos of my time. Expecting a lot of changes and I am excited even though it is stressful. Hopefully it will all bring us to the next level. <br /><br />Fingers crossed and hope for the BEST! <br /><br />And quote and unquote from an ex colleague..sometimes, u just have to go with the flow and be adventurous..<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6374841313068249004-2025820928673356079?l=endingtostarting.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>akikonoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6374841313068249004.post-50784899194370522462010-07-07T07:27:00.000-07:002010-07-07T07:36:48.052-07:00每次從臺灣回來的心情就很差 <br /><br />這次的臺灣行 好戲劇化 <br /><br />我這輩子沒有那麽討厭過一些人 厭惡 討厭 難道你們就喜歡這樣浪費生命？<br /><br />我可想好好過我的生活 <br /><br />一直再思考自己到底要什麽 我 不喜歡現在的自己<br /><br />我可以嗎？我可以回到快樂的日子嗎？ 快樂似乎離我越來越遠 <br /><br />人生就這樣嗎？ 媽媽那天崩潰說人生好苦 其實我也一樣 我好難過 好想消失在某個角落 <br /><br />已經沒有任何感覺 人生就是如此 事情一件一件 我也麻木了<br /><br />Tell me, what's next?<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6374841313068249004-5078489919437052246?l=endingtostarting.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>akikonoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6374841313068249004.post-87074302176067239012010-05-07T08:44:00.000-07:002010-05-07T08:56:06.644-07:00sigh...coming back from work later and later...<div><br /></div><div>Time =10.45pm, </div><div>Condition = Head bursting,physically and mentally stressed out</div><div><br /></div><div>Can't believe we still need to work tomorrow... i need to sleep...</div><div><br /></div><div>Seriously, I need a break or need a pill that gives me a lot of energy. This past few weeks working without my parents is stressing me out. I can't tell how much it is, just...indescribable. The call with customer tonight was the cause... I hate the situation I am in now...customer is on our ass desperately forcing us to produce...if it was that easy...we would... then who is going to save ours...</div><div><br /></div><div>Don't know how much longer I can sustain this... everything seems to be in a mess and this peak season is crazily busy...How many times I have drove in my car feeling tears down my face...Ain't no superwoman. </div><div><br /></div><div>Customers, sales, production, machines, human resource, accounting, purchase, admin...Taipei Investors Association, what have you... i m going bonkers... it's way way way over my head. </div><div><br /></div><div>Shoot me in my head. </div><div><br /></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6374841313068249004-8707430217606723901?l=endingtostarting.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>akikonoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6374841313068249004.post-61716719478425311292010-04-17T17:38:00.000-07:002010-04-17T18:07:10.173-07:00<span class="Apple-style-span" style=" ;font-family:Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;font-size:12px;"><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" ;font-family:Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;font-size:12px;">爸爸昨天開刀 順利的渡過危險 </span></div><div>聼哥哥說 出來一直痛苦哀嚎 </div><div>真的很捨不得 昨天一連竄在家也發生了魚池大災難 加工廠停電 真的是觸煤頭</div><div>但是我一直告訴老天爺 就讓所有的壞事發生在我這邊 讓他順利渡過 </div><div><br /></div><div>想著爸爸 我又過了一個失眠的夜</div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" ;font-family:Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;font-size:12px;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" ;font-family:Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;font-size:12px;">早上起來突然怎麽頭腦就想著這首Rap的歌 </span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" ;font-family:Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;font-size:12px;"><br /></span></div><div><br /></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" ;font-family:Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;font-size:12px;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" ;font-family:Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;font-size:12px;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" ;font-family:Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;font-size:12px;"><br /></span></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#3333FF;">就讓這首歌<br />作詞：張震嶽/姚中仁　作曲：張震嶽　編曲：張震嶽　RAP：姚中仁/侯佩岑<br /><br />(張震嶽)<br />就讓這首歌　今夜一直重複<br />我們都沒錯　只是看清楚原來不懂的事<br />沒有什麼好說　現在先不要說　就讓我們沈默<br />最後的擁抱　愛情的終點<br /><br />(熱狗)<br />回憶一觸即發　如何忍住眼淚不讓它哭得唏哩嘩啦<br />觸景傷情　這樣好嗎<br />從今以後各走各的路　身上留有你的Tatto<br />怎麼可能不在乎　不怪現在只怪當初誰辜負了誰<br />糊塗清醒了沒　越是買醉卻不醉　繞了一圈卻越想念誰<br />吃定了誰　電影散場了沒<br />又怎麼會　虎頭蛇尾　看你哭紅又腫了雙眼<br />一把眼淚一把鼻涕　從喜劇變成默劇怎麼繼續<br />只好放著這首歌它一直Repeat　曾經你是我的癮<br />我們愛的這麼過癮　就像生命共同體<br />如今　卻只能謝謝這回憶<br />電影散場之後　你是否留下了什麼<br />一切不能再重頭　那感傷的話別說<br />這決定並不輕鬆　夜深人靜心會痛<br />有首歌它一直Repeat　Repeat是為了什麼<br /><br />(張震嶽)<br />是分手的時候就讓我們自由　回憶一幕幕<br />就像一場電影原來一直感動<br />電影終要結束結束難免痛苦　心中留下傷痕<br />就讓這首歌縈繞在耳邊<br /><br />(侯佩岑)<br />我嘗試　刻畫著每一字<br />曾經快樂的每一日　這首歌要播幾次<br />有太多的捨不得事　歌詞像針在刺<br />旋律讓眼眶溼　曾幾何時開始靜止<br />打不開的話匣子　從你儂我儂的夢　到現在你懂我懂的沈默<br />所有的痛　就讓時間來破<br />電影散場之後　就在那回首處<br />你別走回頭路　我只能頭也不回的藏住感觸<br />少了片的拼圖　怎麼拼的出那版圖<br />我真心為你祝福　有沒有那麼一首歌會讓你很想念<br />有沒有那麼一首歌你會假裝聽不見<br />聽了又掉眼淚卻按不下停止鍵<br />多少個夜就這樣開著燈到另一個夜<br />我們之間有多少故事在這首歌的裡面　人不在就讓這首歌在<br />回憶也還在　謝謝你的愛<br /><br />(張震嶽)<br />就讓這一首歌今夜一直重複　我們都沒錯<br />只是看清楚原來不懂的事<br />沒有什麼好說現在先不要說　就讓我們沈默<br />最後的擁抱　愛情的終點<br />是分手的時候就讓我們自由　回憶一幕幕<br />就像一場電影原來一直感動<br />電影終要結束結束難免痛苦　心中留下傷痕<br />就讓這首歌縈繞在耳邊</span></span><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" ;font-family:Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;font-size:12px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#3333FF;"><br /></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;font-size:100%;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:12px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#3333FF;"><br /></span></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" ;font-family:Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;font-size:12px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#3333FF;"><br /></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" ;font-family:Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;font-size:12px;"><br /></span></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6374841313068249004-6171671947842531129?l=endingtostarting.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>akikonoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6374841313068249004.post-84779551601060950362010-04-05T06:52:00.000-07:002010-04-05T07:24:18.393-07:00<div>哥哥昨天告訴我一些話 是爸爸不好意思自己講</div><div><br /></div><div>他說爸爸改變想法了 他不想看到我那麽不快樂 所以想要放我走 要去哪裏發展就去哪裏</div><div><br /></div><div>聽到這樣的話 我應該如何反應？</div><div><br /></div><div>如果他早一點告訴我 或許現在很多事都不一樣了。。。 </div><div><br /></div><div>當初會回來的最大原因也是因爲父母。我每次跟他們通完電話，聽到他們很辛苦而我又沒辦法分擔的時候，心理真的萬分不捨。想想父母年紀也大了，我能跟他們相處的時間還有多少？爸爸媽媽身體不好，我怎麽可以自己過自己的生活？能跟爸媽一起工作打拼，不是每個人都有的機會。我是一直抱著這種想法才決定放下美國的一切。</div><div><br /></div><div>現在爸爸又再度生病了，我怎麽有辦法離開？</div><div><br /></div><div>以前一直很嚮往西方人的生活方式，爸媽只希望孩子快樂，不會要求孩子一定要跟自己住在一起。大家過自己的生活，時不時碰面，不是很好嗎？</div><div><br /></div><div>我一直也想很自私的過自己的生活，可是，我沒辦法，我做不到。我想這才是真正無私的愛。就像爸爸愛我，要哥哥傳達我的話一樣。我們被愛牽伴著。如今，在這個節骨眼上，我怎麽可能離的開？</div><div><br /></div><div>離開了你們，我還剩什麽？</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6374841313068249004-8477955160106095036?l=endingtostarting.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>akikonoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6374841313068249004.post-51037242945604570652010-04-02T06:45:00.000-07:002010-04-02T06:53:08.888-07:00It's a long long journey...<div><br /></div><div>雖然才25嵗 怎麽覺得人生開始疲憊了 </div><div>事情天天在變 我怕了 </div><div>我們今年是不是沒有安太歲阿 今天又有突發狀況 不要讓再有什麽事情才好 </div><div><br /></div><div>好累好累 我失去了原本的動力 剛回來馬來不是這樣的</div><div>人生不就是如此 </div><div><br /></div><div>自私的人類 醜陋不堪 </div><div>老天爺你聽到我對你呼喚嗎 </div><div><br /></div><div>請你保佑我們 保佑爸媽 保佑我所有愛的人 </div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6374841313068249004-5103724294560457065?l=endingtostarting.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>akikonoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6374841313068249004.post-86600326134433552312010-03-30T04:48:00.000-07:002010-03-30T06:17:14.788-07:00爸媽回臺灣去了 這好像是我第一次一個人待在馬來 沒有爸爸媽媽 沒有哥哥 沒有...<div><br /></div><div>去年也是這樣自己一個人待在美國 <div><br /></div><div>家裏好安靜 </div><div><br /></div><div>放自己早點回家卻不知道要做些什麽</div><div><br /></div><div>a big part of me is missing... 可能跟你之前一樣吧 </div><div><br /></div><div>可是現在的你應該找回了your missing part</div><div><br /></div><div>哥哥跟我說 要真正獨立 就是就算一個人也要過的很好 自己療傷 自己振作 </div><div><br /></div><div>我會好好的 </div><div><br /></div><div>想到以前下班我都會打電話給你叫你也要回家 ...</div><div><br /></div><div>我只想留下我們美好的回憶 不要破壞我心目中的你</div><div><br /></div><div><blockquote></blockquote><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#003333;">哭過就好了 痛都會走的 記憶有限所以它會淘汰坏的 </span><blockquote></blockquote></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#003333;">失眠聼歌想念雖然苦澀 還是謝謝你讓我長大了</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#003333;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#003333;"><a href="http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=109799785702180">http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=109799785702180</a></span></div></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6374841313068249004-8660032613443355231?l=endingtostarting.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>akikonoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6374841313068249004.post-19537002103927074522010-03-28T05:42:00.001-07:002010-03-28T06:09:17.747-07:00我這個月的人生 好像做在雲霄飛車上 心也跟著高低起伏 <div><br /></div><div>我本來就是一個沒有安全感的人 發生了這麽多事讓我更害怕，恐慌。最近的睡眠很不好，生怕閉上眼睛，明天的人生就變了。唯有讓自己精疲力盡，還有身邊的朋友陪伴才敢入眠。你嘗試過從天堂瞬間掉到地獄的感覺嗎？我仿佛走了一段很長的路。本來完美的人生瞬間掉到了地獄，快得讓你招架不住，完全毫無預警排山倒海地往你沖過來。</div><div><br /></div><div>我知道是老天的考驗。或許這些要讓我更強面對自己的人生。我們的人生也是被父母親牽托著。我不知道我在哪裏做錯了什麽，但是還是得承擔。還好還有親愛的朋友和家人，讓這一切不會太糟。</div><div><br /></div><div>想一想，爲什麽人們要這樣爲難人們？這些痛苦不如意，不就是你，我，他自己造成的？爲什麽世界不能如我想的單純快樂？我不想長大。好累，真的好累。或許這已經是谷底了，沒有任何事能讓這個更糟？希望大家身體可以健健康康。我不要更多壞事了。求求你！</div><div><br /></div><div>本來想的好像都不一樣了 或許我應該起來了 在童話故事裏活得太久。</div><div><br /></div><div>不知道現在的你還會不會在乎我的死活？ </div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6374841313068249004-1953700210392707452?l=endingtostarting.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>akikonoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6374841313068249004.post-87061814636417601352010-02-27T18:44:00.000-08:002010-02-27T18:50:02.526-08:00哇我好久沒來寫blog了<div><br /></div><div>最近以封居然是去年這個時候 </div><div><br /></div><div>昨天晚上作了夢 早上起來發現自己在流淚...好像不是第一次了 因爲夢是如此真實 頭腦都是平常宰相的事 早上起來好難過...</div><div><br /></div><div>家庭，事業，愛情怎麽每一個順心? 好寂寞好寂寞 爲什麽會這麽痛苦？這麽痛苦是爲了什麽？</div><div><br /></div><div>也不能抑制怨天尤人， 只能靠自己走出去...</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6374841313068249004-8706181463641760135?l=endingtostarting.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>akikonoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6374841313068249004.post-24876949042952075842009-02-01T18:19:00.000-08:002009-02-01T18:36:26.447-08:00最近一直在看youtube,因为反正闲着也是闲着...看了一大堆连续剧，我的心情也跟着剧情高潮迭起，真是的，让我越来越难过...<br /><br />为什么爱情不可以是简单的？以前的我总以为两个相爱的人在一起不久好了吗？何必搞到那么复杂？还要顾虑那么多？ 随着年龄成长，現在似乎可以了解，还是得顾虑很多...结婚终究是两个家庭的结合。<br /><br />最近经济不景气，工作量也变少了，真有点不习惯，感觉社会脚步变慢了，还是只是我這么感觉？<br />突然觉得我不适合在这里，因为朋友的关系吧。我得好好继续扩展人际关系，怎么感觉出社回要交朋友那么难。虽然跟同事不错，但大家也有大家的生活，也不能和他们太好，毕竟还是同事...<br />真怀念在学校的日子，你们在学校的人，要好好珍惜阿！<br /><br />最近爸妈也语重心长地跟我说了关于未来的计划...我每次听了都压力很大。可是我了解他们说的，我也同意他们说的，他们给我很好的机会，不想我一辈子吃投入吧。我得好好想想我得未来计划，做一点什么。 做accounting不是我想做一辈子的事...以后有机会，我也想自己开间餐厅，什么样的餐厅，我还在想...我這么喜欢喝汤的人，好想做shabu shabu...在看看了。<br /><br />该找事做了...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6374841313068249004-2487694904295207584?l=endingtostarting.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>akikonoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6374841313068249004.post-13476053962984090272009-01-24T21:58:00.000-08:002009-01-24T22:11:45.073-08:00LA怎么变得如此寂寞<br /><br />原本以为自己是独立的...<br />没有你在，没有我的女生朋友聊心事，我才发现原来我一点也不独立<br />想想以前在大学时候，我好像比较坚强<br />我想我太习惯有人陪伴，已经忘记了什么是寂寞，才会让我那么难过<br /><br />我太依赖你了<br /><br />是时候变坚强了<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6374841313068249004-1347605396298409027?l=endingtostarting.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>akikonoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6374841313068249004.post-16621646342465397892008-12-23T19:16:00.001-08:002008-12-23T19:16:54.023-08:00<div> <p><b><span style="font-family:SimSun;font-size:100%;color:#e36c0a;"><span style="font-weight: bold; font-size: 12pt; color: rgb(227, 108, 10);" lang="ZH-CN">第一句</span></span></b><br /><span lang="ZH-CN">如果我们之间有</span>1000<span lang="ZH-CN">步的距离</span><br /><span lang="ZH-CN">你只要跨出第</span>1<span lang="ZH-CN">步 </span></p></div> <div> <p><span style="font-family:SimSun;font-size:100%;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;" lang="ZH-CN">我就会朝你的方向走其余的</span>999<span lang="ZH-CN">步 </span></span></p></div> <div> <p><b><span style="font-family:SimSun;font-size:100%;color:#e36c0a;"><span style="font-weight: bold; font-size: 12pt; color: rgb(227, 108, 10);" lang="ZH-CN">第二句</span></span></b><br /><span lang="ZH-CN">通常愿意留下来跟你争吵的人</span><br /><span lang="ZH-CN">才是真正爱你的人 </span></p> </div> <div> <p><b><span style="font-family:SimSun;font-size:100%;color:#e36c0a;"><span style="font-weight: bold; font-size: 12pt; color: rgb(227, 108, 10);" lang="ZH-CN">第三句</span></span></b><br /><span lang="ZH-CN">付出真心　才会得到真心</span><br /><span lang="ZH-CN">却也可能伤得彻底</span><br /><span lang="ZH-CN">保持距离　就能保护自己</span><br /><span lang="ZH-CN">却也注定永远寂寞 </span></p></div> <p><b><span style="font-family:SimSun;font-size:100%;color:#e36c0a;"><span style="font-weight: bold; font-size: 12pt; color: rgb(227, 108, 10);" lang="ZH-CN">第四句</span></span></b><span lang="ZH-CN"> </span></p> <p><span style="font-family:SimSun;font-size:100%;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;" lang="ZH-CN">有时候　不是对方不在乎你 </span></span></p> <p><span style="font-family:SimSun;font-size:100%;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;" lang="ZH-CN">而是你把对方看得太重 </span></span></p> <p><span style="font-family:Times New Roman;font-size:100%;"><span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman';"> </span></span></p> <div> <p><b><span style="font-family:SimSun;font-size:100%;color:#e36c0a;"><span style="font-weight: bold; font-size: 12pt; color: rgb(227, 108, 10);" lang="ZH-CN">第五句</span></span></b><br /><span lang="ZH-CN">朋友就是把你看透了　还能喜欢你的人 </span></p></div> <div> <p><b><span style="font-family:SimSun;font-size:100%;color:#e36c0a;"><span style="font-weight: bold; font-size: 12pt; color: rgb(227, 108, 10);" lang="ZH-CN">第六句</span></span></b><br /><span lang="ZH-CN">就算是</span>believe<span lang="ZH-CN">　中间也藏了一个</span>lie </p> </div> <div> <p><b><span style="font-family:SimSun;font-size:100%;color:#e36c0a;"><span style="font-weight: bold; font-size: 12pt; color: rgb(227, 108, 10);" lang="ZH-CN">第七句</span></span></b><br /><span lang="ZH-CN">真正的好朋友</span><br /><span lang="ZH-CN">并不是在一起就有聊不完的话题</span><br /><span lang="ZH-CN">而是在一起　就算不说话</span><br /><span lang="ZH-CN">也不会感到尴尬 </span></p></div> <div> <p><b><span style="font-family:SimSun;font-size:100%;color:#e36c0a;"><span style="font-weight: bold; font-size: 12pt; color: rgb(227, 108, 10);" lang="ZH-CN">第八句</span></span></b><br /><span lang="ZH-CN">没有一百分的另一半</span><br /><span lang="ZH-CN">只有五十分的两个人 </span></p> </div> <p><b><span style="font-family:SimSun;font-size:100%;color:#e36c0a;"><span style="font-weight: bold; font-size: 12pt; color: rgb(227, 108, 10);" lang="ZH-CN">第九句</span></span></b><br /><span lang="ZH-CN">为你的难过而快乐的　是敌人</span><br /><span lang="ZH-CN">为你的快乐而快乐的　是朋友</span><br /><span lang="ZH-CN">为你的难过而难过的 </span></p> <p><span style="font-family:SimSun;font-size:100%;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;" lang="ZH-CN">就是那些　该放进心里的人 </span></span></p> <p><span style="font-family:Times New Roman;font-size:100%;"><span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman';"> </span></span></p> <p><b><span style="font-family:SimSun;font-size:100%;color:#e36c0a;"><span style="font-weight: bold; font-size: 12pt; color: rgb(227, 108, 10);" lang="ZH-CN">第十句</span></span></b><span lang="ZH-CN"> </span></p> <p><span style="font-family:SimSun;font-size:100%;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;" lang="ZH-CN">冷漠　有时候并不是无情 </span></span></p> <span style="font-family:SimSun;font-size:100%;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;" lang="ZH-CN">只是一种避免被伤害的工具</span></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6374841313068249004-1662164634246539789?l=endingtostarting.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>akikonoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6374841313068249004.post-48114847367988485752008-10-09T00:39:00.000-07:002008-10-09T00:46:00.246-07:00not feeling too good recently...i miss my friends, miss school, miss the past....<br />my life now seems so boring...nothing exciting, i need something to lift me up again...<br />i have lost the energy and excitement in doing stuff, dont feel like going out clubbing or drinking with friends...<br />i only want to stay at home....but i miss the old days....how we laughed and played together...<br />too bad everyone is on a different path now...as we get older, it seems harder to make true friends...<br /><br />hope you guys are all doing great, wherever you are, I miss you!!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6374841313068249004-4811484736798848575?l=endingtostarting.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>akikonoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6374841313068249004.post-59901392787412433632008-06-20T00:28:00.000-07:002008-06-20T00:43:59.540-07:00after another 1 and a half months...i am still in the same situation i was as my last post...only more confusing...now that the H1 thing is also 95% confirmed, i guess it opened up my choices, which only made me more confused about what i should do next...<br /><br />weigh the pros and cons... i know...but they don't all have the same degree of importance in my mind...i guess the only hard thing for me is Jeremy...if he is going back...i guess i would have no problem with that...<br /><br />now that it's time to start looking for apartment again...and exam is coming...and work is not getting any smoother... i hate it hate it...hate what i am going through now...<br /><br />life at a cross road...i know there is no path that guarantees a better life...u just have to do your best at any situation...now i can only say...focus focus focus<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6374841313068249004-5990139278741243363?l=endingtostarting.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>akikonoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6374841313068249004.post-86351359292998966182008-04-28T19:09:00.000-07:002008-04-28T19:26:07.276-07:00the question has been on my mind for quite some time...didn't think it was this hard to make a decision until the time draws closer. working in the states for 7 months...i guess i didn't really enjoy it in the beginning but slowly i m getting used to it...initially i was also wondering if this place really suited me, but colleagues are great people...i guess that's why i slowly didn't mind the cultural difference.<br /><br />i always thought saying goodbye was easy if you are the one leaving...but now, i m not sure...i m kind of in a situation that my original plan is on the verge of changing, not to my own choice...getting lost about where i should be, what i should do next. i always like to plan ahead of time, know where i will be next...just like in high school, i know where i want to go for college, i know what i want to major in, know where i want to work in after graduation, but when things doesn't go the way i planned, i m suddenly lost...<br /><br />it's kind of good and bad...u r prepared for the next step but i guess i m restricted by myself when i always do that...maybe sometimes i should just let it go, explore more and maybe i will find what is really exciting and suitable for me. i used to think that being the above average or getting a more than average life is satisfying enough, life can be less exciting but i guess i get too complacent with that too...<br /><br />ahhhhh...hate it when things are up in the air...the only thing i can do now is to focus on short term goal...focus focus focus...things will straighten out itself when time passes<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6374841313068249004-8635135929299896618?l=endingtostarting.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>akikonoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6374841313068249004.post-8042721941822602102008-03-22T12:23:00.000-07:002008-03-22T12:37:11.328-07:00it's too excruciating and devastating....what exactly is going on?<br /><br />I respect the people's decision in Taiwan...and therefore I will say "Goodbye Taiwan"<br /><br />Maybe this is what everybody wants...<br /><br />deep down inside, i pray hard for Taiwan, for the decision made today...to not regret someday and Taiwanese can get what you want...<br /><br />為什么嬴了還是高喊“中華民國万歲” ? 有种你就說“台灣万歲“...<br /><br />我的心痛有如失去最深愛的母親，痛策心扉...又能如何？可能是最后一次的民選總統...再見我的家，再見台灣<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6374841313068249004-804272194182260210?l=endingtostarting.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>akikonoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6374841313068249004.post-57292315444863582302007-10-12T12:41:00.000-07:002007-10-12T12:44:03.740-07:00this is the 2nd week of work... nothing special, still trying to adapt and adjust to the life at work...<br />getting up early is hard for me...and nowadays when I get home, i got really tired...still need to cook and eat and bath and relax...and then go to bed and a new day starts again...<br /><br />i miss my parents, havent talk to them for a long time...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6374841313068249004-5729231544486358230?l=endingtostarting.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>akikonoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6374841313068249004.post-25585033141195777092007-09-19T08:29:00.000-07:002007-09-19T09:02:32.810-07:00Life is complicated...how I wish I can go back to those days when I only know the world as black or white. No grey. No unpredictables.<br /><br />I don't know why I am feeling depressed again all of a sudden. Maybe because I am home, maybe because of what my parents said to me, maybe because I worry about being sick, maybe because I am starting on a whole new journey in my life...a whole new journey that I donno where it's leading...<br /><br />I dont know if I am too paranoid about the future, maybe I worry too much... things just aren't so simple anymore.<br /><br />I used to believe that everyone comes with a purpose to this world...having a job, doing your part to contribute to the society, bringing up good kids who can do more for the future... I am starting to lose sight of all that...things sometimes doesn't happen the way you want it to however hard you fight for it...<br /><br />I am just scared... scared that some day some things will drastically change and upset my world.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6374841313068249004-2558503314119577709?l=endingtostarting.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>akikonoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6374841313068249004.post-44923305395483632702007-09-10T00:22:00.000-07:002007-09-10T03:48:31.497-07:00我只想說 我第一次被算命的影響那麽大<br />他們真的會影響人生命運<br />還是聼聼就好自己注意一點<br /><br />畢竟<br /><br />人生掌握在自己手裏 很多事是可以自己改變的 (依然堅信)<br /><br />我只希望 身邊的人平安快樂<br />-----------------------------------<br /><br />男人怕入錯行<br />女人怕嫁錯郎<br /><br />愛又怕受傷害<br />一段戀情需要互相信任<br />有時候覺得雖然遠距離戀愛很辛苦<br />但它應該是一段真正戀情的驗證<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6374841313068249004-4492330539548363270?l=endingtostarting.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>akikonoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6374841313068249004.post-61111013891823625122007-09-07T03:19:00.000-07:002007-09-07T03:21:41.347-07:00I am now in Taiwan...feel so different this time about Taiwanese pple...<br /><br />miss my friends...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6374841313068249004-6111101389182362512?l=endingtostarting.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>akikonoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6374841313068249004.post-38774433661936278652007-07-31T17:01:00.000-07:002007-07-31T17:15:05.787-07:00Today is the official ending day of classes at USC......<br /><br />哎 我雖然感覺心中放下大石 但很捨不得<br />我以後不會做在裏面的教室，不會在Commons落腳，不會在圖書館meeting....<br />到此結束<br /><br />兩天后即將搬離住了3年的傢<br />最討厭分離<br /><br />不管是分開過幾次，永遠不會習慣<br />只能向前看 把身邊的雜事處理完畢 開心地囘馬來<br /><br />還好朋友都在 我才不會那麽寂寞<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6374841313068249004-3877443366193627865?l=endingtostarting.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>akikonoreply@blogger.com0